Townsville is my home now, but it's not where I belong, if that makes
sense. I'm still so attached to Perth and Western Australia, like I consider
that my home. I lived there for over 30 years, so it's been the primary
experience of other places. And still comes back to me in so many
ways. . . . I sort of feel those pangs of homesickness, and sometimes
unexpectedly, like you're zoning out in front of the telly and they'll
have some sort of story on Perth and so I get an emotional reaction.
You feel it in your heart, like it doesn't even feel like it's being processed
by your head, it just like catches your chest. ... I always talk
about when I die I'll go home. I asked in the Will for my ashes to be
scattered all over a beach in Fremantle. I feel like I'm really connected
to that place, but at the same time I don't want to go back, at this point
As this quote from Sharni suggests, feelings for home are embodied, felt,
often contradictory, and connected to one's sense of belonging and subjectivity.
We begin with this quote because it is a vivid illustration of
what we address in this chapter, in other words, the relationship between
mobility, homemaking, emotion, and lesbian subjectivities.